Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Wanting to start REALLY couponing

I've always been thrifty, frugal, cheap- whatever you want to want to call it. I wanna start couponing cause it would occupy all my free time- and save me money in the process. I really would appreciate some pointers from anyone who actively coupons. Thanks in advance :)

Monday, June 27, 2011

On the Birth of My Nephew.

I've never felt a feeling like when I saw his face. I felt as if my heart would explode with love. I know it's probably minimal to how my sister and Chase feel, but I love Hayden Luke more than I could have ever imagined that I would. I know right now that he will be one of the greatest joys that I could ever receive. He is such an adorable baby, precious beyond all reason. He is cuter than should be allowed. When I held him in my arms, it seemed like nothing else really mattered, because he's in the world, and as long as he was in the world, the world was a much better place. As for my personal world, He brightens it up like the sun warms the Earth. I've never felt a love like that before, like I did with Hayden.

It's like he was always a part of our family. He fits in perfectly! He's such a blessing on me, my parents, and our whole family. I've never been so thankful for anything as that beautiful, healthy, chubby, baby boy. He is more than I could have ever asked for. God knew what this family needed as soon as Ashley conceived him. He is the perfect thing for us. We are all so thankful for that baby boy!

It goes without saying that he will be spoiled, by me and everyone around me. I am so glad that he is welcomed into a family with more love than he will ever know.

Hayden Luke Rapien
8lbs 3oz
20 inches long
9:09 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2011


I've been so busy lately. Duke got sick Monday and I've been busy taking care of him. He's a lot better now but I'm still really worried about him. I think he's going to be okay now though. I don't know what I would do if I lost him too. I can't wait until he's better and we can take him out places again.

Monday, June 13, 2011

On the Loss of my Baby Bruce

This past week has been the worst I've had in a really long time. Most of you know that Michael and I have boxers, and I also have a boxer at my mom and dad's. On Thursday, one of our dogs, Bruce, got sick. He didn't make it through the night. It was honestly the most pain I have felt in a really long time. It was awful watching him suffer, and then getting that call from Michael, well it felt like someone had stabbed me right in my heart. Anyone that knows me knows that my dogs are like my babies. I know that it hurts to lose a pet. We have had Duke, Bruce, Spike (Deanna's dog) and Daisy since they were born. I love Roxy more than she will ever know, but having them from the time they were born forged a special type of bond with them. It's taken me a couple days to even be able to write this; and I'm crying as I even start.

I miss him. I miss his sad eyes, his floppy ears, and the way he always smiled when he saw me driving up. He was the only one that would let me baby him. I miss playing with him, because he would fetch and his brother wouldn't. I remember him sitting on my lap. I remember holding him like a baby after Duke AKA Fat Boy got too big for me to hold. He was always my little boy. Seeing him made my days brighter. I loved the fact that he hated to have his picture taken, while his brothers were all up on my camera. He would always sit at the back and wait for me to pet him. He always looked sad, so I just automatically babied him more. He didn't like to ride in the car; he was scared to put his head out. He never was a rambunctious dog, he always wanted to love, rather than  to pull or play. His demeanor was shy, he only would come up to certain people. He was such a mama's boy, he always wanted to love on him. He was his mother's (Roxy's) favorite boy, she always took up for him when his bully brothers were being mean to him. He was a follower, and usually the last to come to the fence when I had table scraps for them, because he was so scared. I loved his personality, it just made him so different from all his playful, rambunctious brothers and sisters. He looked and acted so much like my Roxy; it was that endeared him the most to Mike. I loved that he always looked dirtier than his brothers, because his white would be the same color of his brown back. I love that I've never seen a boxer that looked like my baby boy. I love that he always wanted me to scratch his belly. I love that whenever he was given a bath, he rolled around in the dirt to get dry. I love that I had to buy him a collar with spikes on it to protect his brothers from ripping his hair out. I love that he loved his mommy and daddy. I love that he was my baby. I love that he always stood behind Duke so that I couldn't see him. I love that he could outrun his brothers, and that he loved to hide from everyone.

I wish that there was something, anything I could do to have him back. To see those sad eyes one more time. To rub those floppy ears. To scratch his belly one more time. To pick him up and hold him again. Let him lick me on the cheek one more time. Let him play with his brothers, and get kissed by Roxy one more time. Just once more. Just to let him know that he always will have a special place in his mommy's heart. To let him to know that his daddy loves him more than he will ever know. To just hold him close to my heart and never have to let go.

Run like the wind baby boy. Never hurt again. Never suffer again. Never forget that we love you, never forget that you were my baby boy.


Thursday, June 9, 2011

Long and Boring Summer

Michael works almost everyday during the summer, usually 8-10 hour days. Which means I'm at home a lot, with NOTHING to do. Facebook gets old. You can only read for so long. I play with the puppy but she eventually goes to sleep. So what's a girl to do?

Really. I have no idea. I am BORED out of my mind. I never ever sleep late, so I usually have nothinggggg to do after I exhaust Facebook by nine in the morning.

I have a lot of time to sit around and think. Thinking has really never done me any good whatsoever.  Blehhhh! I need something to do. I tried to sew yesterday, but something is wrong with my sewing machine and I have no idea what to do with it. Any sewing machine experts out there, your help would be much appreciated.

On the bright side, Hayden will be here in less than a month, so I'm sure my days will be plenty interesting then :) But until then, does anyone know of any cheapish crafts that I could start doing so I'm not BOREDDDD?

Monday, June 6, 2011

Precious Few

Things have changed my life like Harry Potter has. I have read many other series, and none of them have even compared to it. I don't know what it is about it, but it's probably that I grew up on it. Don't get me wrong, I like Twilight, and Percy Jackson & the Olympians, and most recently, The Hunger Games. But no character, no book, no series will ever replace Harry to me. When I felt like I had no one, Harry, Ron and Hermione were always there. When I needed someone to hate, Tom Riddle filled that role magnificently. Sirius Black will always always always be my favorite literary character of all time, and doesn't everyone look up to Dumbledore? Anyways, I wanted to share some favorite parts of mine from the books (taking a leaf out of my great friend Megan's blog here)

"Hmm, you haven't got a letter on yours, I guess she thinks you don't forget your name. But we're not stupid, we know we're called Gred and Forge." -The Weasley Twins

"Will you look at this? I've got some presents!", said Harry. "Well what did you expect, turnips?" said Ron.

"Kreacher lives to serve the noble house of Black," said Kreacher wheezily, "And it's getting blacker everyday, it's filthy.." said Sirius.

"Kreacher did not see young master.." said Kreacher to Fred; "And there's it's twin, unnatural little beasts they are.." he added in an undertone.

"But they is making a mistake at the store, Harry Potter, they is giving you two the same!" said Dobby, "Ah, Harry, how come you didn't spot that? said Ron (in reference to the socks Harry gave Dobby for Christmas)

"Well Percy wouldn't want to work for anyone with a sense of humor, would he? He wouldn't recognize a joke if it danced naked in front of him wearing Dobby's tea cozy" -Ron

"I think I've got an unaspected planet, Professor!" squealed Lavender. "It is Uranus, my dear" said Professor Trelawney. "Yeah, can I have a peek at Uranus too, Lavender?" sniggered Ron. Unfortunately Professor Trelawney heard him, and perhaps it was this that gave them so much homework at the end of the period.

I'm sure there are more; but these are my favorite funny ones. My two favorite quotes of all time also reside within the pages of this series. And they are:

"It is your choices that make you who you truly are, far more than your abilities"-Dumbledore, Chamber of Secrets

"If you want the true measure of man, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals" -Sirius, Goblet of Fire

Many books are in my past and many more will be in the future, but nothing will ever take the place of these. My whole childhood resides on those pages, and it'll be tough saying goodbye.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

I've been..

at a loss for words lately. I just can't think of anything to write. I would like to ask everyone to say a prayer for my mom, she's been struggling with pancreatitis lately and it's been really hard for her. I hate to see her struggle this way.

I've also just been feeling kinda yucky here lately. My B12 is really low and I've been having sore joints lately. I just haven't felt good at all here lately. And coming with that is just feeling emotionally drained. Is it bad that Facebook makes me lose faith in people? I just can't believe some of the things I see on there. It makes me sick the way some people behave.

On a happier note, Mike and I went to FWA and had a really good time, and we ate lunch a MiMi's. It was really yummy. Even when I feel as down as I have been lately, he brightens my day up :)