Yeah, I went there. Yeah, I said it. I understand that I live in America, I have food to eat, blah blah blah, but sometimes ya just gotta say how ya feel and this is how i feel.
Except for Hayden's birth, this year has been awful. We've been through heath scares with my dad and papa, Hayden himself, and it's just been crappy.
Even though it's been 4, almost 5 months, I'm still grieving the death of my dogs. I miss them so much everyday. I blame myself a lot for that because I didn't know that parvo was a booster, and if I did, they would have had it.
I've got so much school work I have to do. I get it, I signed up for this and blah, blah, blah. That doesn't mean it's not stressful. I just want to pull my hair out half the time now days.
I've had to watch pretty much everyone that I know get married this year, and I can't even get a ring on it. I feel like punching something half the time because it really gets to me. Most of these relationships are less than half a year and I'm like, WTH are you doing? YOU CAN'T LOVE SOMEONE YOU DON'T KNOW. Geeze o Petees. I know it's dumb or what ever but I've spent the past 3 years and 11 months trying to build a strong foundation for my relationship, and then people go out and do stuff like this. It really makes me lose all faith I once had in humanity.
People just aren't nice anymore. What happened to that?
And, on top of everything else, Michael had a wreck last night. Being that his truck is a 2008, It's going to cost a pretty penny to get fixed. Thankfully, He's okay, and the truck is still drivable. But don't talk to me about faith. Or happiness. Because I really don't have any right now.
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